Angst Angst Angst

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So, my sister is a Special Needs child - I don't know what it is exactly, but she's just ... difficult sometimes. And I, being the Little Sister and not The Parents, get the brunt of that.

Like today. I moved something in our room while cleaning, which was apparently a huge problem. (Never mind her general bad-moodness this evening.) So, while finishing cleaning, I got a rant-and-a-half about that. I'm pretty used to tuning her out, cause she can go on and on, and, well, no one likes to be talked down to for hours on end. (She doesn't really get that she's being hurtful. She's just in a bad mood and liable to complain - incessantly - about the littlest thing.) It still grated on my nerves.

So, she was going on about this to our dad, who was vaguely telling her she's being silly. Fed up, and affected by her bad mood, I finally snapped, "It's not a problem!" And my dad hushed me.

He bloody HUSHED me. As if I had done something wrong.

The first time ALL that evening I defended myself, he brushes it off. Gives me a look for picking arguments.

I wanted to scream. But I pushed past him and went into my room. Of course he followed me and I got a lecture about showing him respect and how I was being very rude.

What. The. Hell.

You know what's a little bit pathetic? When I get really angry - I cry. And when I cry I get all red and splotchy and not pretty at all. Like, you see those girls in movies and they have those perfect tears falling down their cheeks - hah! Lies. No one really cries like that. Especially not me.

So he leaves, and I cool down. Sorta. (It really pisses me off how she can get away with anything, while I'm on such a tight leash - it makes me want to scream.) I'm holed up in my room with as much privacy as I can get (which isn't much as me and The Sister share a room, and she's walking in and out.) Dad comes in, says "I love you" and I say, "I love you too, but I'm still really mad." And he looked confused. (I laughed. Out loud. He looked more confused.) So, naturally, he asks what I'm mad at. And then I rant at him, which I didn't want to do with The Sister in the room, because I'm too bloody nice. (I swear to god, the only reason I didn't go on for ten minutes was that she was standing in the room awkwardly.)

And when he left she threw a box of kleenex at me, (which i caught like the true ninja that I am,) and we're okay.


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Ah, done ranting. Sorry. Just kind of had to get that off my chest, and I didn't want to rant at poor Anna. Welcome back to the world of blogging! Haha. That was my angst for the week.

So yeah. I've been gone for a couple weeks, yeah? So, what's new.

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Something must be new. I'm fairly interesting, right?

o.O

I'm spending all week at The Nephew's. My sister is ready to have her baby any day now, so it's hard for her to take care of the two-year-old alone while my brother-in-law is at work, so I go over and help out. It's really fun.

It also presents a challenge in the 'keep up with homework' department. Right. Homework. Lets not talk about that.

Anyway, I don't have much else to say.

Welcome back me!

Excuses

So, I've skipped two blogs.

Sorry.

Only not really. See, I'm sick. So I don't really feel like blogging cause it would mostly consist of me going "Blarg, leamme alone I wanna sleep! D<" and no one wants to read that for three days straight. So, to catch up on the last two days, they went like this: Wake up, go in living room with computer, read/write/watch Dr. who/chat, fall asleep, be woken up by phone, kill phone, go back to sleep, wake up again, eat dinner, go to bed, and repeat.

Yup.

*Bounces*

So, did everyone read that Gob post the other day, when our Goblin was hyper and bouncy, and couldn't turn off the CAPS LOCK button?

Yeah, that's how I am right now!

Except it kinda sucks cause I'm tired and probably have to get up early tomorrow, and I might be getting sick again cause my sister is. So I want to sleep. But I'm bouncy. I'm sure listening to bouncy loud music doesn't help. At all.

Agh. What do I have to say!

Oh! I got new sunglasses today! I used to have really cool ninja sunglasses. But then I forgot them in my friend's purse, and then said friend moved to Oregon. So I was like, whatever, you can have them, no big deal. Only then I didn't have sunglasses for a long time, especially when I was in Hawai'i and actually needed them. So I finally got some today, and it made me so happy! They're not as comfortable as the other glasses, but that's probably just cause they're new and I'm not used to them. Trying on glasses was so fun! There were some that were HUGE, like, not those joke glasses that are huge, they were actual glasses. They were just really big. Maybe I am just small? Either way they covered like half my face and I was like o.O only you couldn't see, cause half my face, particularly my eyes, were covered by sunglasses.

So, that was at Sears. And then we went to Trader Joes, which, in case you don't know, is like a health food store, only its more of a normal grocery store. Only it was still a health food store. I love that place. There are all kinds of good things there. I got hummus and these really awesome blue corn chips that taste really good. It is so yummy. The Nephew likes that store cause they have balloons for him. Though he refuses to let anyone tie it to anything so i'm always afraid its gonna blow away and he's not gonna have a balloon any more. It would be sad.

Anyway, this is what Sarah does when she doesn't want to actually think about her post - ramble about her day. And this is a day she actually did something, so she can get away with it! How happy-making!

'Mallow

Makeup and junk food

Fun fact: I don't like makeup. Especially on my eyes. It's heavy and sticky and THERE. No matter how light the makeup is, it's just ... makeup. After a few hours it's all smudgy and then I have black smears under my eyes and it looks like I'm a wannabe goth chick. I LOVE makeup when it looks good. And I love how I feel like I look good when I wear makeup. But for me it only looks good for a little while and then you have to wear smudgy black on your eyes and then you have to wash your face like hell to get it off.

Anyway, I ranted about that cause I just spent like fifteen minutes trying to get all the mascara off. D < If I actually went to school, or someplace where I'd have to look good every day I'd probably just wear the makeup and not bitch, but I don't, so I do.

I have so much wonderful junk food. We got ice cream and ice cream bars, Reeces, Oreos, and ... I think that's it. That is MORE than enough. I ate ice cream. I think I'ma attack the Reeces and leave the Oreos for later.

So with that, I sign off.

'Mallowmar

Fanfilms and Shoebox

Okay, so I found the coolest thing! (Thanks Lauren!) There's this movie! And it's a fanfilm. And it's Lord of the Rings. And it's ARAGORN!

I'm very happy about this. It's called Born of Hope, and it looks amazing. I wanna watch it. She's making me wait. Sad.

Apparently someone used 50,000 pounds (no idea how many dollars that converts to) to make this hour-long fanfilm about Aragorn's parent's generation n'stuff.

ALSO. Again, thanks to Lauren, I've picked up Shoebox. Again. She was like YOU SHOULD READ SHOEBOX and I was like YOU"RE RIGHT I SHOULD and I did. I'm laughing so much, I love it. Shoebox is amazing. I've read it almost all the way through, only I don't remember a lot of it, so I'm pretty much rereading it again.

See how much of a dork I am? I just spent my blog spazzing about a LoTR fanfilm and HP fanfiction. It amazes me.

My life is complete!

I HAVE BEAUTIFUL EARRINGS FROM LAUREN I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!

8D

I also found some really ninja Harry Potter font. < 3

So yes. All together, my life is now complete.

But they're so beautiful. All swirly and dangley. They're sparkly and beautiful and from GREECE. I love owning something from Greece. It makes me happy. If she were closer I'd give her a huge hug.

Um. I'm too tired to be coherent. Here's a picture!

See! Aren't they beautiful? She made me open the box on Skype. I was like hurryupandgetonIwannaopenit! She's wonderful. She wrote me a letter in a sparkly pen. There were shoebox references and EVERYTHING! And a STICKY NOTE! 8D

Well, that's all I really have to say. It was kinda interesting, right?

I'm horrible.

See. I've missed two posts now.

See how honest I am?

xd

Anyway, yeah, I didn't blog last night. And I could've. Grr.